Wow! I was in the anger stage BIG TIME yesterday. 😡Oh yeah. I had never thrown things before. I had slammed doors, but not thrown things. I am going to figure out what the stages are that one goes through when being stalked and mobbed and having frickin idiots around you all the time.
I know anger is one stage wooeee! I threw glass objects at a mirror. Very cheap mirror and objects I could care less about. I said words and used gestures that I have never used before. 🤬Well, the word. The friend next to me and I in drill team were using words that could have gotten us kicked off. 😈Experimental phase. I had almost forgotten about that. But, aim that word at a person – never.
Disbelief and bewilderment is probably the first stage. 😳Oh. I got my car up to 95 mph. I was trying for 100, but that was pretty good. I tailgated. 👿😤🤯All things I normally don’t do. With all my Quaker genes…… heritage. 😇
I got the urge to drive fast after some IDIOTS decided that I might be a threat based on a very, very mild initial manic episode at the age of 42. Yes 42. 😕😲👎Shows how stupid it is to take a generalization and pigeonhole your thinking. Anyway, I was dealing with the humiliation I felt acting strange around someone. NOT threatening but weird, off, drunk. 🤭🤗😲🤪First time my Civil Rights were violated. THAT made me terribly mad, 🤔😡😢😓confused, and ANGRY! So, I wrote and drove and spent a bit of time lying on the bed. The VERY DAY I went to see a counselor, set ups were started by lame brainers.☹️🤡
Oh, I was mildly rapid cycling. In fact, I had hypothymic disorder. ☹️Yep, not even bad enough for me to feel like I belonged in a bipolar support group. Hell, yes. But the hell lasted WAY longer than it needed to because of the crap I was put through. Oh, I was raised believing that crap is a four letter word. But I do think it fits.
Driving somewhat fast helped a bit. Not really, but it felt right at the time. 😸
So, I have a mess to clean up this weekend. Just in case people try to point to my normal reaction to assault, stalking, mobbing, work mobbing. Well, I thing throwing things out there is a good thing, don’t you? Particularly when you are dealing with people who create scenes so people see what the slimeballs want them to see. 💊🤪👿🤐🤮What an opportunity. Lady goes off half cocked. Oh, I am sure there were MANY calls to the cops. No doubt about it.👮🏽♀️👮♂️👮♂️👮♂️👮♂️
But hey, I might be the longest surviving victim/SURVIVOR of this type of intense KULT treatment. I don’t think so, from what I have read. BUT, I am going on 18 months of very active harassment which was preceded by a summer of sensitizing. Which was preceded by a time of high financial worries, which was preceded by a year of depression AND a broken ankle probably caused by assault which was……you get my drift.💊☠️🎭🚑
Anyway if I was one of these slime no balls, I would think that this is the perfect opportunity to commit assault or worse. And make it look like something else. Yeah. Unfortunately, one has to think about how these KULT RIGHTERS might think.☠️🤡💀👺666, 77, 88, WP, 🤠👩🏻🚒👩🏻🏫👩✈️👡🎩💼🐴🐶🦌🐎🔥
Openness and honesty. Like the politician who announced that she has bipolar disorder. To a peer who asked, “Are you nuts?” She replied, “Yes, weren’t you listening?”😂