The Road Goes Ever on and on, Down From the Road Where it Began…….

 

Since first reading The Hobbit, I have related to Bilbo Baggins. I love, absolutely, LOVE driving down roads……………….I miss having a 4X4RNR1. As a kid, looking out the windows driving up and down and down and up from So Cal to Nor Cal, I would wonder where those roads went. I certainly, though, like Bilbo, did not mean to experience such an adventure………….a reluctant traveler at times, but I have taken the experiences and learned and grown…………..and “Regrets I have but few” is one of my mottoes.

I took a new road today and it was great! Thank you! I actually have a lot to thank my ignorant stalkers for…………………in 2013, I was in a park/natural area in Sebastopol, distraught – completely distraught. I prayed. Boy, did I pray…………..A few weeks ago, I had the pleasure of gong to Ragle Park and seeing one of the prettiest sunsets I have seen. I realized that God had answered my prayer. Here I am…………….and met one of the bravest people I know……………in the process. I spent a year depressed. It was hell, but my parents had started saying, “I love you” at the end of every phone call. THAT got me through.

My family got me through. It was truly a miracle pulled off by my family that I was able to fly (with a bum ankle, depression and anxiety) down to So Cal for my daughter’s college graduation. A miracle. My family’s miracle including a firefighter great-nephew to get me up the steep slope from the parking garage and back down – in a wheel chair. God must have had his hand is this somewhere. So……………I LOVE the “road less traveled” though I just learned that is an incorrect quote……………………

I was born mindful…………….I can live so “in the moment” and screen out these evil people. By the time I moved to Sonoma County in 1996, I had gone through more than most people have gone through in a lifetime. Reluctant traveler, but I laugh at some moments in all of our misadventures…………….You have to laugh…………..or you might cry. I chose to laugh.  My best friend since kindergarten (raised a pretty strict Lutheran) has always been amazed when I would call her………..she made some sort of joke about God and what I have been through…….then, she says that “She must have a great sense of humor.” NEVER expected my best buddy from kindergarten to say that, but with age comes wisdom………………or it is supposed to……………..NOT for you stalkers.

As my 94 year old dad said a year ago when told about some relationship that would not have happened when he was younger – a Republican for years…………….then, he became a truly wise man………….ask anyone who knows him…………a 50’s dad and husband, Republican but always questioned………And I think he has seen the Dalai Llama twice. Anyway, when I told him about one relationship, he said that his tax guy will be moving with his girlfriend to some Asian country after he retires………..then he said, “The world is a different place than it used to be.” He was talking about the positive changes. I hope he is NOT watching any of the current news.Grew up in Berkeley with such diverse people.

By the way………………..every single member of my family would be totally astonished by any negative thing you would have to say about me. Totally. And all my family looking down on me from heaven…………….they also give me strength. My Mom was NOT an easy person to live with, but I thank her for this underlying strength that helped her survive and her joy of singing……………even the most silly songs…….and boy was my grandmother strong. Youngest of 9, I could see where she probably got her jealous streak from…..and wasn’t always nice……but strong. Wow!………….my uncles…………inventors – had an impact on safety since WWII……….and all because of Traumatic brain injury falling from a Heinz railroad car………………..smarts too! If you think I have been too open about my ex and should be more concerned about my kids……………..well, some group or someone …………….that ship sailed…………………..I had been honest with the loving grownups around me since day 1……..THANK you Dad and Mom for teaching us to be so forthright (something of which many brought up in some families will never know the job of………..so 1996………….and the people went Oops. Gee did we blow it. 2013……………………and definitely an evil force afoot. Seriously, including my ex. Why nothing last school year? That makes NO sense at all……………….Ah well. Your loss, my gain…………………..could be that my ex really was holding out…..for an illusion of a million dollars ………not very realistic…………………bringing up my cancer treatment at the deposition………………….or ALL the money he contributed (which was never ours) but leaving out the thousands of dollars from the gift of stock Robert Switzer gave me and gifts from my parents………………..which was always ours (BIG mistake ladies).

I’m sure you can read the deposition. Public record right? And a notation about a million dollars I was supposed to inherit on a form sent to his attorney…………………really? Based on something in 1985. However, if it is regarding money…………….whoa. With $600, 000 and not ONE penny to his deceased brother’s son – his nephew……………he says $300,000 but nope. Interesting that this was timed shortly after our divorce was final. YOU have an issue with yours? None of your business I would say in my world, but you people stay out of mine! Oh………you are in this world or is it on, but not of it…………………..that is why you can act this way and be just okey dokey. Some of you are only doing this now to protect this secret society/CULT activity………….your precious………………..OH your PRECIOUS……………….maybe you had better read the Hobbit and the Trilogy of the Rings…………….You are going to become thinner and thinner……….a shadow…………………….. I will return to the Shire………with you there or not……….You cannot undo what you have done………………for those older……….you truly cannot undo what you have done. Your group is too large and will fall someday. Here is one of many version of “The Road Goes Ever On and On”:

Meanwhile………….The Road goes ever on and onDown from the door where it began.Now far ahead the Road has gone,And I must follow, if I can,Pursuing it with eager feet,Until it joins some larger way Where many paths and errands meet.And whither then? I cannot say..

 

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